...taking a journey through life, attempting to fit all the pieces of this puzzle together...

PLEASE NOTE...this is my personal blog with my personal feelings...

21 May, 2010


What does it mean to love? Better yet what does it mean to love someone else?

Love is one of those words that we hear so often. Sometimes it’s thrown out there loosely. Other times there is some type of meaning behind it. I thought I was in love once, when I was in high school. I now look back onto that experience and ask myself what the hell I was thinking. Now that I am older I see that situations as me simply wanting to be accepted. I often ask the question of “how does to feel to be loved?”, and often times people will say well I love you. But that is coming from a friend or a family member. When I ask that question I’m asking from a better half prospective. I’m asking as if this is someone I would potentially want to have a family with, someone to spend the rest of my life with. So I ask again how it feels to be loved. Better yet how does it feel to love someone else?

We as people often confuse love with other types of emotions. Sometimes we are missing things in our life and someone comes along and we feel that they are filling some type of void. But in actuality they are just assisting us with covering up what’s really going on. I think we need to learn who we are before we “decided” to be in love with someone, right? You know that phrase you need to take care of yourself before you can take care of someone else.

Love is something that should not be taking lightly. There is a very thin line between love and hate. There is a very thin line between love and lust. Love can make people do things they never thought they would do. If you don’t know the difference you can lose yourself in what you consider as love. More people should take time out before they “decide” that they are in love. It’s something that should be approached very slowly because we do confuse what we are feeling.

I never thought anyone would love me, nor did I think I could truly love someone else. It’s just one of those things I feel is a very big responsibility that I wasn’t sure that I was ready for. But as I grow into the person that I am and the person that I am destined to be, I feel that I could truly love someone else, and better yet allow someone else to truly love me. I guess that is a part of growing up. You do simply that “grow”. You grow into your emotions, you grow in your feelings, and you grow as a person.

So with that I leave you with two beautiful love songs by Jose James. These are the types of songs you didn't think people made anymore. The type of songs that make you smile as you listen to them....ENJOY!


15 May, 2010

The 3 Wise Monkeys!

HEAR no Evil,
SPEAK no Evil,
SEE no Evil,
DO no Evil...

The three wise monkeys (Japanese: 三猿, san'en or sanzaru, or 三匹の猿, sanbiki no saru, literally "three monkeys") are a pictorial maxim. Together they embody the proverbial principle to "see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil". The three monkeys are Mizaru, covering his eyes, who sees no evil; Kikazaru, covering his ears, who hears no evil; and Iwazaru, covering his mouth, who speaks no evil. Sometimes there is a fourth monkey depicted with the three others; the last one, Shizaru, symbolizes the principle of "do no evil". He may be shown covering his abdomen or genital area, or crossing his arms. (-wikipedia)

Translation: touch your nose and mind your business!!!!!

14 May, 2010

What do you regret?


According to Merriam-Webster
transitive verb
1 a : to mourn the loss or death of /b : to miss very much
2 : to be very sorry for

intransitive verb : to experience regret

Its funny how within life, we have a tendency to look at things as either black or white. We never seem to leave much room for any kind of grey matter. It either is or it isn’t (well at least in my life). Within my time on this earth there are two things that I can say I regret. The crazy part is one of those things may not ever affect me later in life. It just may be one of those things that disappear, unless I become famous or something (BLAH). And the other, is one of those WOW types of situations. It’s you asking yourself after the facts like WOW how did this happen. You engage in the type of conversations with yourself, like, I know I’ve lived my life right, right? I try to live my life so that I set an example, and BAM you’re knocked off your feet. You’re sitting staring at the stars and birds circling around your head like in a cartoon. Asking your self is this really my reality? WTF.

I mean at the time you thought that was the best thing for you at that moment, RIGHT? It felt good right? You were happy right? It sent tingles through your spine right? After it was over, didn’t you have a big smile on your face :-D RIGHT!!!, and then as the days past reality sets in and you start to sulk in your own self pity.

So I said all of that to say this…LIFE can change on you. Just when you thought you were going down the right track something comes up. And in most cases that something is something that makes you say why me. And if you are anything like me you blame yourself for it. You think about how it could have been different. What did you do wrong? But, in a lot of these situations there was someone else that may have played a role in leading you down a certain path. (Now, I’m not saying blame others for your actions. Because when in the case where someone else is involved you have to look at the part you played.) I’ve learned that you can’t always beat yourself up about everything that you feel is going wrong in your life. That’s a part of life. You’re going to make mistakes. You’re going to do something that feels right at that moment and may regret that situation later. You’re even going to do something that you know was not right for you at that moment but you know what it *ucking felt good.

In the end were supposed to learn from our mistakes and in some cases the mistakes of others. Life is a learning lesson. You’re going to win some and you’re going to lose some. Hell you may even come out even in a lot of things. But in the end you grow. You grow into a stronger and wiser person.

Moral of the story: Don’t live your life with regrets! Enjoy your time on this earth and work with whatever situation that’s thrown your way. That’s how you learn to live. You pick and keep going!

08 May, 2010

Medicine for Melancholy

So I was having a conversation with a male co-worker of mine and the subject of love and dating came up. While we were talking he said I have this movie I just saw yesterday that reminds me of you, you should check it out. Now if you know me and you've seen this movie you know why this movie was suggested ;-P.

It's funny that upon his suggestion I ordered the movie off of Amazon.com after seeing the trailer and looking up information about the movie through the trusty would wide web, and I must say that I am completely in LOVE with this movie.  It focuses on all the things I love: love, learning, relationships, race, culture, you know the things that make up life!!!

Although it's not like most movies, especially the ending.  It's real and it gives me hope that there is that special someone out there for me and I just hope that our paths cross at the right time ;-P...

This movie is currently showing on http://www.sho.com/ if you have Showtime please check out the show times, it's well wroth it. Or you can just do what I did and buy it.

07 May, 2010

Getting Started!!!!

So I've been sitting on this blog for a few months now thinking about what I really want to talk about. Orginally I said I was going to use it to vent, because I felt I needed a out lease. But, being that I consider myself to be very private I though twice about that idea. And then I was inspired again. A friend of mine from college tweeted one day "I was 27 years old #whenifirstmet me! Growing up is a beautiful thing." And of course that was an instant re-tweet, because that is SUCH a true statement for me and bam there goes my inspiration.

So I decided instead of just talking about me, I'm going to talk about life. My life, my friends lives, and just stuff. The kinda stuff that makes you feel good, deep down in your soul. The stuff that makes you smile when you don't realize it, like music, books, movies, and places.

So hey I'm on a great ride called life, in a awesome head space. LET'S GET IT (in my Jeezy voice)!!!!!!!!!!!!