...taking a journey through life, attempting to fit all the pieces of this puzzle together...

PLEASE NOTE...this is my personal blog with my personal feelings...


27 May, 2012

Day 6: 30 Day Challenges Letter, Picture, and Music...

#30daychallenge: Check out the Original Post with all the details for the challenge here.

Day 6

Letter: Write a Letter to a Stranger...

This will be short and sweet...
I know you've heard the saying never judge a book by it's cover. Well that's it, that's the entire point. Never judge a person buy what you see on first sight. Your eyes could very well be deceiving you. Believe half of what you see and none of what you hear. I added that because when there is a problem between people always remember there are three sides to every story; What A said, what B said, and then what really happened and everyones perception is going to be different. So unless you're willing to take the time out to find out who that person really is leave your judgments to yourself and mind your business...

-Me

Picture: Someone I Love...

(((ME)))
It took a really long time for me to love me. There were moments when I looked at myself in the mirror and did not recognize the person looking back at me. I have to love me first before I can love anybody else; my mom, my aunt, etc etc. When you have no clue who you are and how to love yourself you take relationships for granted and don't realized the power your thoughts have over you. If you don't love and support yourself how can you allow anyone else to love and support you!!!

Music: A Song That Reminds You of Somewhere...



My family is from Georgia, I went to college in Georgia, and one of my favorite places to be where my soul feels at peace is Savannah, Georgia...

17 May, 2012

Was That Good Enough...

It’s crazy how one reaction or lack thereof can change everything. Have you ever stepped out on a limb and done something and wondered if it was good enough, even when it was done simply because you wanted to? You weren’t asked to do it, but you did it because it felt right…and then you were rejected and made to feel like what you did was not good enough. What do you do next? What do you do when you don’t even get a “thank you”?

 All I really wanted to say was “you’re welcome”. I didn’t want anything else; I just wanted to show you how much I appreciated you. But you took that away from me. Part of me feels rejected and slightly like a throw away. Some of this becomes a reflection on me and it makes me wonder why I need to be accepted by you so much, and not just you but everything around me. What in me needed you to know that I appreciate you? When you look at the situation shouldn’t it have been that you appreciated me?

 Why are there so many standards and stipulations that we place on our lives to please those around you. You do things, you say things, you wear things, you change parts of yourself to be a “right” fit with someone who you know and feel you are not equally yoked with. Why do we not listen to our hearts when we know and can feel with every muscle in our bodies or even with just one small pore that this person isn’t a right fit for you? We have an internal battle with our heart and mind. We want to feel good and will take the external feeling over the internal feeling. We want what feels good right now, not down the road. We need that instant satisfaction. What we don’t realize is that the external and instant are what causes us such pain. What makes us need to feel needed by those that don’t even appreciate our small gestures?

 It seems like today is different from yesterday. Just a simple sign to show you I cared has completely thrown my world upside down.

 This at the moment may feel like a mockery but, it gets better. These types of situations are learning experiences. It helps you open your eyes and learn to be a better person.

 I know that one day it’s going to get better and I won’t have to solicit a “you’re welcome” and they will come naturally. I think at the end of the day I just want to be a perfect fit with someone and just appreciated.


I can tell a storyAbout a girl I knewDraw the perfect pictureBut it wouldn't be all the truth
Envision every momentRelay it back to youWrite it down in scriptureBut you would know its you
A woman out for loveBut she gets lost along the wayEveryday grows harderCuz the light might dim away
I could speak the futureSpeak of your love as if it were mine, mineUse you as my subjectBut I'm still lost as to what it isAnd tryna find
A woman out for loveBut you gets lost along the wayYou think a man is the answerTruth is you're our only waySo envision every momentrelay it back to meI'll write a song for foreverThe light will always stay
I'll write a songFor forever more
I'll write you all the songsSo the light won't dim awayJust to envision every womanlost her true loveImagine every loverFilled with peace and trust
Envision every womanLost her true loveImagine every loverFilled with peace and trust
Envision every womanLost her true loveImagine every loverFilled with peace and trust

16 May, 2012

Day 5: 30 Day Challenges Letter, Picture, and Music...

#30daychallenge Check out the Original Post with all the details for the challenge here.

Day 5

Letter: Write a letter to your dreams...

My darling dreams...sometimes you scare me. It feels like your going to fast and I don't know which way is up. What I can say is that you have always been constant and you've never lacked the drive. Sometime I fight and I remain in a constant battle with my mind and my heart on were I should proceed with you next. Thank you for never giving up and always being the one thing I can always count on to keep me going. It's funny how some days I wake up and realize that my latest dreams are no longer dreams and are being lived out day to day by me...and you've moved on to the next thing to keep me motivated and pushing. I will never stop dreaming and making goals for myself.  Dreaming is the beginning, the goal is the reality, and making my dreams become my reality is my everyday hustle :-P

-Monique

Picture: Childhood Memory

This is a picture of my Great Grandfather and myself, it's been the background picture on my phone for about 4 years now. I was 4 years old when this was snapped. He was born on July 4, 1916 and he past away on April 2, 2002. He walked this earth for 85 years. I'm pretty sure the reason why we took this picture was because I had a band aid on and knowing me it wasn't anything under it.  The reason why I chose this picture as my childhood memory was because every year like clock work we went to see my Granddaddy Harold around his birthday. It was a summer trip I always looked forward to. He lived right behind a rail road track and had a pecan tree in his backyard. So the sound of a train horn and the smell, feel and taste of pecans are very nostalgic to me. Every year when we visited my cousins and I would always come home with a jar full of change because he didn't like change and would just throw it in a jar when he came home. His dollar's were always crisp like they were just printed at a  factory. I miss his stories and the smell of his pipe as seen above in this picture. Because I was in college at the time I wasn't able to attend his funeral :-(  But every time I pick up my phone I see this picture and I am reminded and flooded with all his memories...

Music: A Song That Reminds you of Someone...


This song reminds me of him even when I don't want it to...You're not good for me not even as a friend and I've never even shared something as simple as a kiss you you...


A New Summer Scent...

I'm gonna start this off by saying I'm not a big perfume person. I have a very funny nose that reacts to everything. Don't get me wrong I do own some but, I pretty much have to walk around with tissue because I never know when it's going to run uncontrollably. Which is why when it comes perfumes I become very picky. I even avoid the perfume aisles in department stores. No I don't want to smell that and can you get out of my face and stop harassing everyone...lol...
Everyday for Women: http://www.thejayeveryday.com/shop.php
SO with that being said I actually came across a perfume that I like and my nose agree's with. And I think it's super cool that I know that guy who put out this fragrance. Ladies and Gentlemen allow me to introduce you to my friend Jermaine "Everyday" Smith and his Everyday for Women fragrance, and I must tell you with summer right around the corner I think we have one of our new favorite summer time scents on our hands.  So pull out your wallet and place an order...

Just image the reaction on a beautiful summer day when the wind hits you at the right angle and you smell this light clean smell with hints of Rose and Amber that brings a smile on your face...and you know you smell good. It just adds to your confidence and presence and helps you take the extra step just to make sure those around you can smell it to :-P

I must tell you that his drive and dedication to his brand alone will have you placing orders to get your hands on this fragrance or to just simply be apart of whatever he has going on. Be it his radio show, plays, social media forum, etc etc etc... He's changing lives and writing history all at the same time.
Everyday Radio: http://www.thejayeveryday.com/index.php
When you get the chance please check out him out via the links below...Thanks

Fragrance: Everyday for Women

Also, Jay recently did an interview with Daily Venus Diva Magazine click here to read the article and to find out more about what drove him to create a fragrance with the "Everyday Women" in mind...

PS...if you look very closely you will find me in his Everyday for Women collage above...Its like Where's Waldo but were looking for Mo ;-P

04 May, 2012

Something Beautiful...

From: Me
To: You


When I hear this song I think about you.  Something Beautiful, something that feels right.  I wanna go to a place were I'm nothing and everything. I like the way you make me feel the way nothing matters when I'm near you. I wanna go to a place were time has no consequences. You are something Beautiful that captures my thoughts. You take me to a place that exists between here and nowhere. Engulfed by thoughts of you seconds from each other. How do I express to you that I think you are something Beautiful...because you take me to a place were I can hold the intangible and let go of the pain with all my might.

I guess maybe?!?!?!

-Mo

Day 4: 30 Day Challenges Letter, Picture, and Music...

#30daychallenge Check out the Original Post with all the details for the challenge here.

Day 4

Letter: A Letter to your sibling (or closet relative)...

Closet relative it is since I'm an only child...or a general letter to my younger cousins. You guys give me breath. I admire you all and I'm so very proud of you. You are all special to me in an individual way. I learn so much from you guys every day. I couldn't ask for a greater group of people to be related to. Although at times it hard to keep up with you all (since it's about 100 of you...lol) I find myself stalking facebook, twitter, or some kind of news article since some of you are a BIG DEAL ;-P. You bring joy to my life and I am so grateful for you all. Love you much XOXOXOXOXO...Our Grandparents Carolyn, Harold, TC, and Alberta would be so proud of the men and women you have become. Keep up the good work.

- Your Momo

Picture: Favorite Color...

Purple

Isn't it beautiful...?

Music: A Song That Makes You Sad...




For all we know
We may never meet again
Before you go
Make this moment sweet again

We won't say goodnight
Until the last minute
I'll hold out my hand
And my heart will be in it

For all we know
This may only be a dream
We come and we go
Like the ripples of a stream

So love me, love me tonight
tomorrow was made for some
tomorrow may never come
for all we know 


Fun.: We Are Young ft. Janelle Monáe [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Over thinker, just maybe...

How do I begin to wrap my thoughts up into one adjective, verb, or noun. How do I describe this function and break down all the intertwining layers that make it whole? How do I express my joys and frustrations in simple terms that you may understand? How can I get my words to express the fight of my heart and brain or the peace within them both. In most cases my brain likes to play out the scenario before my heart can get a chance to react. It's an everyday stuggle to attempt to control my thoughts and understand my heart. My over thinking brain likes to control my every move, and when it feel defeated it feels like everything around me comes crumbling down. It doesn't matter the situation, it could be love or life. It takes a simple yes and no a turns it into a maybe, addition, moreover, but and, and. Going with the flow makes me tremble inside. Something as simple as an okay can turn my world upside down. To be the person that says whatever let's go is a envy of mine. I have to think about and play a least three different, what if this happens in my head. The pain that I place on myself is stomach turning at times. I'm learning to quite my mind and process differently. Bare with me during this process. It's a complex simplicity that I call my life...


Citizen Cope - Deep

03 May, 2012

Day 3: 30 Day Challenges Letter, Picture, and Music...

#30daychallenge Check out the Original Post with all the details for the challenge here.

Day 3

Letter: Write a Letter To Your Parents...

Mom...you are the foundation that keeps me sane. Throughout my life and at different points I've seen you struggle to stay just above water. I admire you for the woman that you are and the person that you are becoming. You are truly my best friend and I am beyond blessed to have you in my life. At times I know I take you for granted but please charge it to my head not my heart. I tend to look at you as always being there and I never look at the fact that you can be taken from me at any moment. I'm pretty sure that it would be hard for me to even function and complete everyday activities knowing you were not there to encourage me. You are my rock. Its hard to put words to paper to express how much I love and care for you. A letter to you is different than the others because it comes from an inner part of my heart that becomes twisted and floods my brain. So I close this with a huge I LOVE YOU from deep in the inner part of my soul. You are the mother that was meant to have in my life and the greatest mother in with world in my mind. Your presence at all walks in my life have been greatly appreciated. The memories that we have and that we will continue to make are what keeps me ground and surrounded with love. MOM you are the greatest.

-Mo

Picture: Clouds...

Every time I take a plane flight I always take a picture of the the sky. Here is my favorite one...


The sky is the limit....nawl reach beound the stars....

Music: A Song That Makes You Happy...
Maze ft. Frankie Beverly-Before I Let Go; This song is by far one of my favorite song. From the moment it first comes on you can find me singing every word with every ad lib etc etc...doing my best at what I call dancing lol..Enjoy